i love the most.

water colour with black ink on canvas.

perfect.

him.

i miss this moment.

please come back here again . soon.

:(

pasca graduan

HSKOBA ostrich

just came back from rugby alumni league at padang utara, pj with zatil dzulkifli. had an awesome time with etil which came on the behalf of tv3. view terbaik dari ladang. especially no 10 n 19. congrats to HSKOBA - farid, dol, telo, boboi, syqal, bagong, abg rahmat, abg hasman n dagu for winning the league n managed to hold the title for 4th times already. proud of u guys!

watch them on tv3.

bak kata telo,  kita dah bagi bangga org klang!

BFF

Malacca 2011.

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current obsession

do u know why in malay, we call a child, 'cahaya mata' ?
because it simply means the light to the eye,
which exactly explains what i feel now about him.

super like.

CLUB PINK
victoria's secret fashion show 2011

projector

Aktiviti di malam hari bersama Makcik nadia.

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Aunty sherry

Welcome to the world, megat umar.

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sunday morning.

woke up early in the morning n perform subuh prayer with family. ahh.. how i miss days like this. no one to tell me about school work. i need a break from all that. definitely. not happy with where i am (school) n the people i work with. too many dramas n too many fake emotions in the air.

went for a bbq session last nite at abglong's house. few anak ikans were there. on super hot bikes. yup. unfortunately, my anak ikan crew, nadia came in late, with her bf.huhu.

so, my plans today?

going to search for fabrics.saw this super cute fabric at ikea. im gona make a super cute curtain for my room. excited. im thinking of plain blue or purple n i will tie few pink ribbons on it.

planning to go for hair treatment session with nad. hopefully, this time she will bring me to a correct salon (pilih2, i boleh buat punya)

search for a carpet/rug to put in my room. looking for a plain black.

watch a movie.

hopefully a fruitful day for me ahead. insyaAllah.

salam maal hijrah everyone!
may we have His blessings every seconds in our lives.
insyaAllah.

my own world.

walaupun bilik bersepah due to the renovation process, tetap dapat pengunjung. terima kasih semua yang dtg memberi sokongan moral. huhu.

cant wait for the result.

ini soal MARUAH!

it reminds me a whole lot as the director for 'kekasih semalam' at qut kelvin grove roundhouse theater.a lot of hardwork but the satisfaction, is endless.

Although I have to turn down a post as one of selangor netball officer for under 14 (the time clashes), I am happy that I did this as this comes 2nd after netball. Super tired. I barely sleep as I spent lotsa time managing the camp. Passion makes people go crazy everyday in their lives, huh?

Now I miss all my actors n crews of Kekasih Semalam n Macbeth. who knows, there will be one project for us, in the future? Amin.

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melody #1

Menangis dalam gelap malam
Bersendirian ditemankan bulan
Mungkin itu yang sering dikatakan kehidupan
Sebentar di atas dan sebentar di bawah
Hidup yang tak pernah penuh dengan kepuasan
Dan tak juga kosong dengan kebuntuan
Aku sering tanyakan diriku sendiri
Apa itu erti sebuah kehidupan
Menangis dan ketawa
Sendirian tak berhaluan
Mungkin kalau aku lebih memerlukan
Kau akan datang memberikan

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kuat.

U never know how strong u are until being strong is the only choice u have.

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anak ikan.

Girls day out looking for.ehem.

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eid mubarak.

To everyone here, at home. N to my relatives at the holy land n to the rest of muslims. May this day brings out the best of us n may we will be blessed by Him. InsyaAllah.

*prayers to all Muslims whose fighting for illness or his blessing during this holy period. Dun give up on Him.

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prayers.

"saat seseorang yang dicintai jauh disisi, saat hati teramat rindukan dia, saat tiada medan untuk menghubunginya, dan saat dia terlalu sibuk dengan urusannya hingga tidak mampu untuk memikirkan kita, maka wanita solehah itu akan segera mencurahkan rasa itu dengan mendendangkan rindu pada bait-bait kalaMULLAH, meluahkan isi hati di medan sujud bersama linangan air mata dan doa nan tulus, moga kasih dan ingatan ini berkekalan menuju syurga. Wanita solehah itu kan bijak memendam dan mengalirkan rasanya"

in memories.

we rocked Malacca, baby!

had so much fun with my kids sampai kena tegur sbb tak bercampur dengan group cikgu langsung. kids lagi fun kot.
huhu.
;P

une less puntos

Inspired by his determination.

Steve jobs (1955-2011)

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us.

We miss u, Sab!

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ok. menangis sekarang.

my tears dropped when I read this.

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double rainbow.

Kebosanan ketika kursus akan menyebabkan kreativiti kita membuak2.

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wedding photo

I want this for my wedding photo.


Definitely. Perfect.

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netball:part 2

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kekecewaan.

Tahu apa yang paling buat saya kecewa? Bila saya usaha, tapi, org lain yg lebih pandai main politik yang dapat. Salah saya, Sbb tak nak terjebak. Tapi, salahkah saya Sbb saya nak rasa bersih drpd hal2 Yang sebegitu.

Birokrasi.

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current obsession.

SKRILLEX

water.

WANITA BERUNSUR AIR
1) Menghidupkan hati pasangan dan pemberi
semangat.
2) Mengambil berat
3) Hatinya bersih dan boleh membahagiakan
pasangan
4) Menenangkan pasangan.
5) Sangat romantis
6) Mudah menangis

According to my reading, I'm air. Can I be api instead? Because api is mentioned as sum1 who is hot n memberahikan in love. I dun wana menenangkan pasangan. I wana be hot. Like PCD members. Gggrr~

Hahaha. Sengal me.

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i need u now.

Owhhhh.. Don't be too hard on urself.. Sometimes works kill us! Hang in there just a few weeks to holiday! The moment where we can temporarily forget the shit!

Relationship? Is it **** Babe I hv less experience about it but wat I believe is true love never hurts you for a long period.. The hurt and pain come and go. The bitterness is the bridge to understand each other better. Follow your heart and mind. Be strong

Miss u much
Xoxo

monday morning.

a morning text does not simply mean

'good morning'.

rather, it comes with the silent, loving message,

'i think of you when i wake up'

well said.

semanis gula-gula.

The sweetest thing that a person can do to others can be as simple as sacrificing ur own time to get lunch for others, u know. Like, u dun have to buy fancy things to show that you care. A simple note will do. or u dun have to spend 24 hours talking to me, just a smile from u, will make my day. N like wat kak falah did when my car was in workshop dat day, she gave me a ride back home so that I dun have to wait for my mum to pick me up for an hour.It looks simple, but,to tell u the truth, I am so touched.

I guess, we should take things easily n more relax. We will see the world n others better.

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the best club sandwich.

Bisou club. The best club sandwich I've ever eaten. Better than o'briens, Starbucks n subway. Please, oh please try.

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how far would i go?

this is the question that i ask myself every single day.

like when your mum suddenly calls you to ask for your help although you are watching your favourite movie with your beloved, you will definitely go out from the cinema at once, in the middle of the movie, drives home, to attend to her. you can just say, 'laterla, ma' or 'ask kaklong or boy to do itla, ma' instead, you would do it for her. and when you have to accompany her to everywhere she goes, shopping, facial, meeting with friends, and take care of all her friends' kids while she goes out for movie with her friends. even sometimes, whenever shes meeting her friends and she only wants you to drive her, waits for her, n bring her back home - she can just drive herself there on her own but being a mother, yeah. i still do it for her because that is how far i would go for my family.

like going to all my class at school. i can just go inside each class n take out the textbook, n teach. but i didnt. i always have something extra and special for them. to help them understand better. i actually did the practicum thingy until now. yesterday, i taught them about what a tree can gives us. i brought elizabeth arden's green tea perfume n let all 160 students of mine, smell , experience and describe about the smell. its not really a problem if u go to rural school which they are used to smell perfumes. but, for my students, yesterday was their first time. n if u ask me about the perfume, yes, only 1 quarter left, but, that really helps them understand things better. everyday to school, that is how far i would go for my students.

like when your bestfriend suddenly calls you at 3am and the fact that she needs you, you would at least lend your ears if not rushing out drives to her house. u just dont have the heart to just let she cries and do nothing. its like shes a part of u and whenever she cries, your heart hurts and your tears start to stream down your face too. maybe the love that you have for her is as much as love your family members. and the fact that she is always there for you when you need her, you are doing the same thing to her too. its hard when u come to think about it. like what sabrina said, friendship needs effort. wake up at 3am,looking for your car keys and drives to your bestfriend house just to be with her when shes down, that is how far i would go for my friends.

everything in this world, every single thing that happens, just ask yourself, how far would u go for something that u really love. then only u will know urself and others better.

Coach Syarifah

Mini Olympic for netball at my old school, mgs klang.

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berlari.

aku mahu berlari.
tanpa henti.
ke sana sini.
bersama sepi.
tinggalkan sedih hati.
untuk kemudian hari.
tapi ku khuatiri.
inikah yang pasti.
untukku kembali.
menjaga hati.

morning lotus.

I walk on Monday morning with so much hope that everything will turn out good this week. Like what arifah posted, for some, happiness comes easily, but for some, u really need to work for it.

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eid.

Eid Mubarak.
Maaf Zahir Batin.

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sab.sob.sab.

i am missing that moment with her now.
n i know im gona miss it more later.
definitely one of a kind girl that has a special place in my heart.

need it now.

When was the last time I touch one of those?

Hmm. Something to ponder on.

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please leave, thank you.

im hoping that all the bad energy will go away so that i can easily enjoy my life.

if i dun disturb ur life, please do the same thing to me.

thank you.

chess and god.

jodoh itu, rahsia tuhan.
kita takkan tahu percaturannya.

ayat2 cinta.

Mencintai dan memiliki itu adalah 2 benda yang berbeza. Hanya yang cukup sabarnya dapat memahaminya. Lantas, menerimanya.

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k.e.g.e.m.b.I.r.a.a.n.

Don't want an ending.

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hair cut.

I need a new hair cut n sonya's definitely worth trying. U think?

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4monkeys

Fav cousins.

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so true.

Mengapa menyakiti

yang kita pilih

sedangkan cinta

itu indah

-faris mansor-

my fav bursa

our first picture together in aussie.
happy birthday, JG.
may u have diamond days ahead.

love u sgt2, makcik!

patah hati.

Do you know where your love is?
Do you think that you lost it?
You felt it so strong, but
Nothing's turned out how you wanted

apa guna hati sejernih kaca,
sekiranya selalu diranap si dia yang kau cinta.

dia.

zul, sila turun ke kl secepat mungkin.
rindu zaman2 bermain guitar bersama.
terima kasih.

p/s : salam ramadhan almubarak untuk semua.
semoga bulan ini kita dirahmati dan dikasihiNya.
insyaAllah.

sayap yang patah.

i cant sleep last night. theres sumting that is missing from me. so, i browse through my bookshelf and i found the old dramatic book, 'the broken wings' by khalil. like what i have discussed in my book club earlier, it is cheesy, but i found it sweet if u r in his position, in love and trying to pour all his feelings and emotions through words. i read it again for i duno how many times last night until early in the morning. i cried badly last night because somehow i can still feel how i felt when being left by sum1 we really love. its like watching hindustan, korean , japanese n those sad love stories. u can actually drown in ur own tears.

how i miss watching movies with the princhesters now.

'In every young man's life there is a "Selma" who appears to him suddenly

while in the spring of life and transforms his solitude

into happy moments and fills the silence of his nights with music.'

-the broken wings, khalil gibran-

current obsession

bubba gump.high heels.three-holes-ring

alhamdulillah.

im still here.breathing.praise to Allah.

ren.

i have a student. a form five student who i teach English every week. last night, he opened up to me asking me to help him solve his love problems.

i used to be him the last time i remember. but now, im helping my student to solve his love problem. i actually used a paper, and a pencil to help us went through the session because he loves to draw and he finds it difficult to start. he drew the problems, people involved ; i find the whole session, super cute and we managed to come out with few suggestions and solutions.we kinda did a mind map, if he choose that one particular choice, this is what hes gona get. good thing is, i gave him options.

i feel like i am katherine heigl in 27 dresses. dok menyibuk tolong org bercinta, but myself.. hm...

and my student has an imaginary friend, named Ren who tells him what to do, and share ideas and opinions all the time. yeah, i wana laugh at first, but when he told me how real and true his imaginary friend is, i kinda , u know, blend in.

oh, i feel so old.

jejaka idaman

i wana be christina perri in this video and i want my boyfriend to be like the guy in that who sounded very much like cookie monster. cute.

hot, ber-tattoo and sexy.

jilat.jilat.jilat.

mahakarya

sampai masa tibanya waktu

redup hati kamu berdua

bila dua jasad bersatu

hidup mati jadi bersama

most beautiful i had ever seen from her.

agnes monica - karena ku sanggup.

ringing.NOT.

working my ass out to generate a test paper for the next test. i think im a bit bias because i tried to look for questions that will not burden my students that much. note: my students r from the last 4 classes out of 14 classes. i guess the good students will get superb result unless they didnt know what a 'clown' is too because none of my students (160 of them) know what a clown is. yes, its true.

its funny because u often get headache when u r trying to teach them in class because not all will pay their attention n interest to u after u have worked so hard preparing your teaching materials. u still are worry about their performance. hmm. some of them will actually be super overjoyed if they can go out from ur class during english because they could not even bothered to learn anything at school - they will not bring any books that is related to your subject and they think that english will eternally be foreign to them.

i guess parents n their surroundings play a very important role to the kids. due to the fact that they did not realize how important english in their life, they jus dun care . they jus dun care. at all. in fact, not only english, almost all the subjects.

i know they are improving. n im thankful for that. but, lately, i think im loosing the grip.

i just need to tighten it up a bit.

nirmala.

Sesungguhnya berkasihlah

Di antara manusia

Perindah segala kata-kata

Bahagia itu janjinya

Mengapa kita sengketa

Rentaslah jalan terbuka

Tanpa dusta

patah hilang tumbuh berganti

TOBY - My new baby.

D.I.Y

Problem: the remote alarm is no longer together with the keys set. i have to hold on to two things wherever i go. (as seen below)

aim: attaching the remote alarm back to the keys set

things needed: a philip screwdriver and determination.

steps:

1. screw out the screw in the remote alarm so that you can open up the remote ( as seen as below).

2.make sure the battery is properly placed back when u want to attach the outside screw in before you place the remote back together.

3. once u have set the outside screw in, (so that both keys set and the remote are attached together), carefully press the remote back together until u hear the 'tap' sound , which means it is now properly attached.

4. before you put in back the first screw just now, try to pull out the outside screw. if you can pull the screw out, that means, you are doing the wrong thing and u did not attach it properly inside the remote alarm. repeat step 1 - 3 again.

5. once u cant pull the screw out, screw back the first screw in. make sure it is tight enough so that u dun have to go through all this thingy again.

6. tadaa!!!!

caution!

u have to be careful when screw-ing and placing the screw in because u can hurt ur fingers due to the small size of the screw and u r just being a woman who loves to be pampered and dun wana do all these stuffs.

hypothesis: the more lonely u are, the more things u can do on ur own. huhu. sebenarnya memang senang sangat kot buat nih, tapi selalu nak harapkan org lain manjakan ataupun nak untungkan pakcik kedai tu.

bak kata mama - 'kau memangla boleh je buat semua tu, gembeng je. manja sangat'

hambek kau!

T.R.U.S.T

trust is a big word. for everyone. not just to lovers or friends, but also to family members. it is sumting that is so precious that u almost cant gain back if you lost it. maybe u can , but u have to go through all over again.

for those we love, it is important to trust your loved ones. sum said, dun trust ur partner 100%. but, for me, when something happened like gossips, rumours, u have to go back to ur trust on ur partner. if u put ur trust on him, u will try to ask things around first before u jump into conclusion. n when u have done that, then only u can decide to put ur trust. either he will loose it or he still have ur trust. trust will determine your love to that person. trust will let u forgive them .trust will let u keep ur love last longer and trust will let u hold on to those you love. trust will never let u give up on those u love. but when u dont trust them anymore, the love that u cherished the most will be gone, in a second.

im jus asking you to think back of the reason why this thing happened. if u trust people more and if this is solely his fault, then, u can start to walk away. but i always think that problems can be solved as long as u still have ur trust on those u love and never let go. hold on to ur love because thats what keeping both of u together. n y want to waste it by some rumours?marriage is not something we pick when we walk and we can just drop it when we no longer have feelings for that particular sum1. its a devotion of two souls that trust each other. be there for better or worse. but, once u have a negative feelings towards ur own marriage and pointing fingers is the only thing u do, check again about the meaning of ur marriage. u r not loving the other person. u r using them. it is supposed to be two sides worth of effort. if something is wrong, both sides are responsible.

when u try to point fingers at people, maybe u should stop and think back. is there anything that u have done to cause this problem? maybe its time to evaluate urself - im doing the same thing too.

i need a new start.

bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

everything.

i duno what did i do wrong but everything is being snatched away from me.
literally EVERYTHING.

im not sure this is the start of my karma or this is the end.

thanks to those who cares.may Allah grant u a better life than what i have now. insyaAllah.

betulkan saya.

bila kau mencuba yang terbaik, tetapi kau tetap gagal
bila kau dapat apa yang kau mahukan, tetapi bukan apa yang kau perlukan
bila kau tidur sepanjang hari tetapi kau masih tidak mahu berhenti
terperangkap dalam putaran
bila air mata mengalir tanpa henti
bila kau hilang sesuatu yang tiada berganti
bila kau sukakan seseorang tetapi tiada akhirnya nanti
bolehkah menjadi lebih teruk dari ini?


diam.tidur.hilang.

hati berbalang kaca

bila kau menangis sendiri di situ
kau tahu kau keseorangan
kau berharap kepedihan dan kesengsaraan itu akan pergi
meninggalkan hati kau yang rapuh seperti kaca
mungkin ia telah retak
mungkin ia telah pecah
mungkin kau sendiri tak mahukannya
apa guna mempunyai hati sejernih kaca
tetapi selalu diranap oleh si dia yang kau cinta.

life and everything surrounds it.

i had the biggest slap in my whole life last night until to the extend which i dun want to be in this life anymore. yeah. for a while. i wish that i can just disappear if whatever i said, means nothing especially to the ones i love the most - my family.

it breaks my heart when u always be good to people, yet, people make stories about u. bad ones. not the good ones. n u will be wondering.. my goodness, if this is what they give u back when u r always being nice to u, imagine if u treat them like shit, they will surely give u hell, man. furthermore, it came from the environment that u hate the most - ur school. n somehow it arrived at my dad's ear n the whole family.

maybe its important to think about the truth or the other side of the story. maybe whatever people told u, it is not necessarily good. but, u chose to listen to them rather than listening to ur own blood. dat hurts. a lot.

i just need my old rainbow back. that shines brightly on the skies . that gives me reason to smile. every single day. never fails.

what shall not be given a title.

i woke up this morning with so much hopes and interests. not that i know whatever that we wish for everyday, it might not come and please us. like today. but i hope that it will come later today. i feel so bad for my students because i am becoming less motivated day by day. i wish for more motivation and adrenaline from everything around me. and i really miss my friends. its been a while i didnt meet any of them. too busy with stuffs that i duno which one to look forward to. i have things that i regret everyday and things that i wish can explode them so that i dun have to see them in the future. like this one lady in my school. maybe i think too much about it. maybe i should let her go. bad energy and it is useless.kan?

looking forward to an observation by orang putih today n my time alone on bed tonight. mungkin kita memang perlu biasakan sikit2 keseorangan. feeling2 time prac.

di hatiku ada hatimu

I Carry Your Heart With Me
by EE Cummings.

i carry your heart with me
(i carry it in my heart)
i am never without it
(anywhere i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)

i fear no fate
(for you are my fate,my sweet)
i want no world
(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

hati berbunga.

kau tahu hari itu akan jadi indah bila perkara pertama yang kau buat bila bangun ialah senyum.

kerispatih.

bila rasaku ini rasamu.

hanyut

Maafkanlah ku tak bisa hidup tanpa kamu
Fahamilah ku tak mampu terus tanpa kamu
Bagaimana ku nanti
Bila tiada mengganti
Yang ku ada hanya kamu saja
Saat mata terpejam
Hanya kau ku terbayang
Menghapus semua segala rasa di jiwaku
Saat mata terbuka
Kamulah yang pertama
Tak mampu aku
Bayangkan
Hidup tanpa dirimu

these are my reasons to smile everyday.

mungkin bila mereka tiada, saya akan rasa nyawa saya hilang separuh.