sayap yang patah.

i cant sleep last night. theres sumting that is missing from me. so, i browse through my bookshelf and i found the old dramatic book, 'the broken wings' by khalil. like what i have discussed in my book club earlier, it is cheesy, but i found it sweet if u r in his position, in love and trying to pour all his feelings and emotions through words. i read it again for i duno how many times last night until early in the morning. i cried badly last night because somehow i can still feel how i felt when being left by sum1 we really love. its like watching hindustan, korean , japanese n those sad love stories. u can actually drown in ur own tears.

how i miss watching movies with the princhesters now.

'In every young man's life there is a "Selma" who appears to him suddenly

while in the spring of life and transforms his solitude

into happy moments and fills the silence of his nights with music.'

-the broken wings, khalil gibran-

current obsession

bubba gump.high heels.three-holes-ring

alhamdulillah.

im still here.breathing.praise to Allah.

ren.

i have a student. a form five student who i teach English every week. last night, he opened up to me asking me to help him solve his love problems.

i used to be him the last time i remember. but now, im helping my student to solve his love problem. i actually used a paper, and a pencil to help us went through the session because he loves to draw and he finds it difficult to start. he drew the problems, people involved ; i find the whole session, super cute and we managed to come out with few suggestions and solutions.we kinda did a mind map, if he choose that one particular choice, this is what hes gona get. good thing is, i gave him options.

i feel like i am katherine heigl in 27 dresses. dok menyibuk tolong org bercinta, but myself.. hm...

and my student has an imaginary friend, named Ren who tells him what to do, and share ideas and opinions all the time. yeah, i wana laugh at first, but when he told me how real and true his imaginary friend is, i kinda , u know, blend in.

oh, i feel so old.

jejaka idaman

i wana be christina perri in this video and i want my boyfriend to be like the guy in that who sounded very much like cookie monster. cute.

hot, ber-tattoo and sexy.

jilat.jilat.jilat.

mahakarya

sampai masa tibanya waktu

redup hati kamu berdua

bila dua jasad bersatu

hidup mati jadi bersama

most beautiful i had ever seen from her.

agnes monica - karena ku sanggup.

ringing.NOT.

working my ass out to generate a test paper for the next test. i think im a bit bias because i tried to look for questions that will not burden my students that much. note: my students r from the last 4 classes out of 14 classes. i guess the good students will get superb result unless they didnt know what a 'clown' is too because none of my students (160 of them) know what a clown is. yes, its true.

its funny because u often get headache when u r trying to teach them in class because not all will pay their attention n interest to u after u have worked so hard preparing your teaching materials. u still are worry about their performance. hmm. some of them will actually be super overjoyed if they can go out from ur class during english because they could not even bothered to learn anything at school - they will not bring any books that is related to your subject and they think that english will eternally be foreign to them.

i guess parents n their surroundings play a very important role to the kids. due to the fact that they did not realize how important english in their life, they jus dun care . they jus dun care. at all. in fact, not only english, almost all the subjects.

i know they are improving. n im thankful for that. but, lately, i think im loosing the grip.

i just need to tighten it up a bit.

nirmala.

Sesungguhnya berkasihlah

Di antara manusia

Perindah segala kata-kata

Bahagia itu janjinya

Mengapa kita sengketa

Rentaslah jalan terbuka

Tanpa dusta

patah hilang tumbuh berganti

TOBY - My new baby.

D.I.Y

Problem: the remote alarm is no longer together with the keys set. i have to hold on to two things wherever i go. (as seen below)

aim: attaching the remote alarm back to the keys set

things needed: a philip screwdriver and determination.

steps:

1. screw out the screw in the remote alarm so that you can open up the remote ( as seen as below).

2.make sure the battery is properly placed back when u want to attach the outside screw in before you place the remote back together.

3. once u have set the outside screw in, (so that both keys set and the remote are attached together), carefully press the remote back together until u hear the 'tap' sound , which means it is now properly attached.

4. before you put in back the first screw just now, try to pull out the outside screw. if you can pull the screw out, that means, you are doing the wrong thing and u did not attach it properly inside the remote alarm. repeat step 1 - 3 again.

5. once u cant pull the screw out, screw back the first screw in. make sure it is tight enough so that u dun have to go through all this thingy again.

6. tadaa!!!!

caution!

u have to be careful when screw-ing and placing the screw in because u can hurt ur fingers due to the small size of the screw and u r just being a woman who loves to be pampered and dun wana do all these stuffs.

hypothesis: the more lonely u are, the more things u can do on ur own. huhu. sebenarnya memang senang sangat kot buat nih, tapi selalu nak harapkan org lain manjakan ataupun nak untungkan pakcik kedai tu.

bak kata mama - 'kau memangla boleh je buat semua tu, gembeng je. manja sangat'

hambek kau!

T.R.U.S.T

trust is a big word. for everyone. not just to lovers or friends, but also to family members. it is sumting that is so precious that u almost cant gain back if you lost it. maybe u can , but u have to go through all over again.

for those we love, it is important to trust your loved ones. sum said, dun trust ur partner 100%. but, for me, when something happened like gossips, rumours, u have to go back to ur trust on ur partner. if u put ur trust on him, u will try to ask things around first before u jump into conclusion. n when u have done that, then only u can decide to put ur trust. either he will loose it or he still have ur trust. trust will determine your love to that person. trust will let u forgive them .trust will let u keep ur love last longer and trust will let u hold on to those you love. trust will never let u give up on those u love. but when u dont trust them anymore, the love that u cherished the most will be gone, in a second.

im jus asking you to think back of the reason why this thing happened. if u trust people more and if this is solely his fault, then, u can start to walk away. but i always think that problems can be solved as long as u still have ur trust on those u love and never let go. hold on to ur love because thats what keeping both of u together. n y want to waste it by some rumours?marriage is not something we pick when we walk and we can just drop it when we no longer have feelings for that particular sum1. its a devotion of two souls that trust each other. be there for better or worse. but, once u have a negative feelings towards ur own marriage and pointing fingers is the only thing u do, check again about the meaning of ur marriage. u r not loving the other person. u r using them. it is supposed to be two sides worth of effort. if something is wrong, both sides are responsible.

when u try to point fingers at people, maybe u should stop and think back. is there anything that u have done to cause this problem? maybe its time to evaluate urself - im doing the same thing too.

i need a new start.

bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

everything.

i duno what did i do wrong but everything is being snatched away from me.
literally EVERYTHING.

im not sure this is the start of my karma or this is the end.

thanks to those who cares.may Allah grant u a better life than what i have now. insyaAllah.

betulkan saya.

bila kau mencuba yang terbaik, tetapi kau tetap gagal
bila kau dapat apa yang kau mahukan, tetapi bukan apa yang kau perlukan
bila kau tidur sepanjang hari tetapi kau masih tidak mahu berhenti
terperangkap dalam putaran
bila air mata mengalir tanpa henti
bila kau hilang sesuatu yang tiada berganti
bila kau sukakan seseorang tetapi tiada akhirnya nanti
bolehkah menjadi lebih teruk dari ini?


diam.tidur.hilang.

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life and everything surrounds it.

i had the biggest slap in my whole life last night until to the extend which i dun want to be in this life anymore. yeah. for a while. i wish that i can just disappear if whatever i said, means nothing especially to the ones i love the most - my family.

it breaks my heart when u always be good to people, yet, people make stories about u. bad ones. not the good ones. n u will be wondering.. my goodness, if this is what they give u back when u r always being nice to u, imagine if u treat them like shit, they will surely give u hell, man. furthermore, it came from the environment that u hate the most - ur school. n somehow it arrived at my dad's ear n the whole family.

maybe its important to think about the truth or the other side of the story. maybe whatever people told u, it is not necessarily good. but, u chose to listen to them rather than listening to ur own blood. dat hurts. a lot.

i just need my old rainbow back. that shines brightly on the skies . that gives me reason to smile. every single day. never fails.