mltr

You're the one who set it up now you're the one to make it stop
I'm the one who's feeling lost right now
Now you want me to forget every little thing you said
but there is something left in my head

kecewa.

semalam saya menangis di dalam perpustakaan sekolah saya kerana kecewa dengan beberapa murid kelas belakang saya kerana tidak menghormati saya. walaupun saya tahu mereka telah dikategorikan sebagai murid yang tidak boleh diperbaiki sahsiah kerana rekod2 kejahatan seperti melubangkan kepala kawan sendiri dan membuli murid lain dengan memukul dan meminta wang , tetapi saya tetap berusaha untuk menarik minat mereka untuk belajar. tetapi, saya tidak boleh lagi bersabar semalam kerana mereka telah bercakap dengan nada yang tidak sopan dengan saya kerana tidak mahu membuat kerja yang diberikan kerana mereka tidak minat belajar kerana mak bapak mereka tidak kisah mereka tidak pandai.

saya rasa seperti saya bukan guru yang baik kerana perasaan untuk tidak melihat muka mereka sangat menebal sekarang.

happy teacher's day

with some of the teachers of skrp. rasa paling plain sangat. huhu. sbb yang lain meriah makngah.

found it.

Boy I think about it every night and day

I'm addicted wanna jump inside your love

I wouldn't wanna have it any other way

I'm addicted and I just can't get enough

rebecca hitam

seriously?

Roses are red, violets are blue, if Rebecca Black wins ANY awards, Kanye you know what to do...

motivation

Sometimes you just need a little Justin Timberlake in your school to get you moving.

married guys 101

since all the male teachers in my school are married, i really need to have a survival guide on how to talk to them. well, at first, i dun really think i should bother on how i talk to them until a colleague of mine gt scolded by a male teacher's wife because she thinks my colleague's sms to her husband x proper. i saw the sms. for god sake, shes just asking about work n the male teacher is the only person who is in charged.

after that incident, i became more conscious about how i talk to them n sometimes, i have to sms them for work purposes. i actually sent a draft sms to nadia first to check whether my sms is appropriate for a married guy. who knows the wife checks the husband's sms everyday. psycho.i know.

sometimes, i actually said sorry first before i said anything. i tried to be as polite as i can and as tak drama as i can. n theres one incident when we talked at the library:

people in the scene: me, aisyah, kak nairul, cikgu syamry and cikgu norman hakim.
we were talking about nyahs and how they are viewed from different perspectives.

me: tapi, saya rasa, mereka kalau macam saya perlukan seorang lelaki, mereka boleh je jadi lelaki.

(ok. what i meant was, when we really need the guys to protect us like when we wana cross the road or lift bags, they would become a man n help us. at least dat is what i saw based on my experience. but this is how the married guys heard it)

cikgu syamry: maksud pah, perlukan lelaki tu, apa dia? perlukan yang macam mana tu?

(i know what they meant because both the male teachers n aisyah n kak nairul were laughing. ok.. now.. is it my bm memang shitty or my tone salah? perlukah semuanya pasal benda2 yang dewasa? macamana untuk kita bercakap dengan mereka seperti kita bercakap dengan semua budak lelaki ipba cohort 4 yang most of the time, paham dan dengar benda yang serupa? mungkin tak mungkin berlaku. when im so careful on how i talk to them, derang pulak boleh buat lawak yang obviously akan menyebabkan isteri derang marah.)

do i talk to them like i talk to dan, dyau, zaim, zul, sunny, mamat, aiman n yuni?

or should i really choose my words because they are married n things can get really complicated n dramatic if wrongly understood.

yes, i really need a survival guide on communicating with married guys. please.

i wanna eat pussy.

yes, dats what my year 3 boy said when i gt into his class. its not for me, i know. but .. wait3. since it is from my school, obviously its not in english, which makes things worse.

'SAYA NAK MAKAN PEPEK'

i was so disturbed by that statement especially the last word that i spent 10 minutes scolded the boy n the whole class. i gave them revision sheets and i went out my class. i went to staffroom n tried to talk the problem out (one of them is the school counsellor) with some senior teachers who were in there n this is what they said:

'PAH, BIAR JELAH. DERANG MEMANG BIASA MACAM TU. NAK BUAT MACAMANA? KALAU SUSAH, NEXT YEAR, PAH MINTAK JE TUKAR AJAR DARJAH SATU KE'

nak buat macamana? what the? if u cant do anything, so, u just let it be? then, how would the kids know which one is good and which one is wrong? n how would they know that was a serious thing. i went to my car, locked myself in it n i cried.

i got so disturbed by the word (maybe because a year 3 kid said that. he is too young to know that kinda word and behaviour). n i cried because no one bothers to do something to that kinda kid. so, we just let them be? dont u think its very immoral if u see sum1 does sumting bad (which i believe its going to be worst later) n u just let it be? how about ur moral code? their moral code?

some said i got so over reacted by this incident. but if only u knw how disturbed u can be by the word and the thought that u will be teaching in that kinda environment for i duno how many years.

'No man can be a good teacher unless he has feelings of warm affection toward his pupils and a genuine desire to impart to them what he himself believes to be of value. '

Bertrand Russell

relationship.

i cried when i watched this.it reminds me of my relationships with all my xs. it is so true how they categorize the stages. watch this.

welcome to the family

welcome to the family:

daughters n sons of cici:

caca (as in cha2 dance)
cece (as in 'sister' in chinese)
cucu (as in grandaughters)
coco (as in coco chanel)

*my other family members puat petition untuk tukar nama kittens tu.huhu.