malaysian masterchef.

i tot of joining, but, i couldnt attend the audition due to hari jumaat n sabtu (yeah, friday n saturday) working day, sabtu tu dah check ada LADAP. n my school susah bagi cuti except for wedding n kematian. the other day, one of my colleagues kawin, dapat satu hari cuti je. yeah. n plus, i have to free myself from anything due to the program from may tu august which i have asked my school, cuti tanpa gaji perlu dihantar 3 bulan sebelum. at least. yeah, so, dats it. ada yang cakap, just go trylah, maybe dapat. kalau dah dapat, nanti just cakap tak bolehla. however, dia ada agreement which we have to signed yang cakap we are able to free ourselves. ntahlah.mungkin bukan rezeki this time. esok pagi at 6 am, tarikh tutup penyertaan.

*was watching adnan sempit. i think the movie is a good malay movie sbb it really shows the malay culture (up to u to judge whether the culture is good or not). only a true malay would understand the jokes. n it reminds me of Iner. yes, Amalina Mohd.

*watched 10 mins of AF. yes, akademi fantasia. im not trying to burukkan or whatever but it is that bad. im trying to watch it with an open heart but i couldnt. i cant even stand it after 10 mins. im a big fan of reality tv shows especially when it comes to talents n i couldnt help myself looking for reasons for them to be in the show. like, seriously, susah nak carik.like, omg, seriously this is the best malaysia ada? i bet banyak lagi ada, tapi, yeah. its different when u watch american idol. u can feel the goose bumps u know. like, its a different and special feeling. i actually cried when listening to casey abrams's nature boy. its a different feeling because u will look so hard for their flaws because it is that good.

actually nak cakap pasal masterchef je, tapi, tak tahan sbb AF tu pening.

di hujung sini.

begini rasanya hari minggu tanpa sesiapa untuk berkongsi ria.

*terduduk jauh di hujung sini.

how could an angel breaks my heart?

i was shocked. i didnt see it coming. maybe because i think everyone will be true to themself all the time and will work hard with whatever that they have. then only i realised that not everything will go as planned although we have tried our best because love is all about bringing two souls together. i know this feeling sucks n sum people think it is stupid to have one-sided love, but i am not ready to let it go yet. 5 years, too precious. but i will let Allah decide whats best for me (n working hard at the same time to get back my other half). because i believe He knows best and will reward those who work hard.

n yeah, i deactivated my facebook because i think it will only let me be more miserable at this point of my life. i wish to be alone and do what i do best.

*u can get through me by sending sms, ringing me or just drop a comment here.

its like what they said, when reality came knocking u out, u will be in grief , only this one, harder.

this is not just a story.

alhamdulillah, i gt selangor.

i wana do something that i can be proud of and smile when im 60. i jus dun wana regret those things that i didnt try when i can still do it.

i wana read and write. more. sitting on a couch, with a book n lappy n chai latte.

i wana cook good food and have those people that i love enjoying it.

i wana get married n have babies. i wana have my own home. i wana have my own world.

i wana be a better person.i wana be a better muslim.

i wana be more knowledgeable.

i wana have a good life.

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yes, a good life.

indah.