bercakap pada bulan.

aku rasa indahnya

bila mendengar kau menyanyikan lagu itu

sangat indah.

aku faham apa yang kau rasa.

kau rasa seperti dia ada di sana

seperti engkau ada di sini untuknya

dia rindukan kau seperti kau rindukan dia.

aku faham apa yang kau rasa.

kerna aku juga seperti itu.

bila malam bertabir

aku ada di situ menantikannya

kerana indahnya tidak terkata

memberi harapan padaku

memberi ketenangan padaku

yang dia akan tiba datang kepadaku.

aku tunggu, tunggu, dan tunggu

seperti kau.

kerana aku tahu dia ada.

di luar sana.

L.A.Z.Y

i fall in love with this music video and can i play it over and over again while im in the LADAP (latihan dalam perkhidmatan) session kejap lagi?

please.please.please.

single dan boleh mingle.

kadang2 rasa awkward sebab dingorat oleh students sendiri. aku rasa derang tak tahu pun apa yang mereka sedang lakukan, tetapi, kadang2 comel sbb derang budak kecik lagi. apa yang kau tahu tentang cinta, budak?

'teacher, saya dah tahu boyfriend teacher siapa'

'siapa?'

'haziq dr kelas 3 jaya tu'

'erk. mana kamu tahu ni? pandai je'

'dialah btgtau satu sekolah'

'korang ni, kecik2 lagi dah pandai'

memang haziq pernah menyatakan hasratnya melalui surat yang berakhir dengan 'i love u, teacher', tapi, aku ingat sbb dah nak hari guru. huhu. pelik. terlalu muda dah tahu nak ada pasangan sendiri. yang peliknya lagi, setiap kali aku bertembung dengan haziq di luar kelas, dia akan tersipu2 malu. aku yang rasa pelik. like, seriously?

tapi, kan, aku single. bolehlah mingle. tapi, dengan budak year 3. boleh?

huhu. deranglah penawar duka aku kat sekolah. kalau takde budak2 tu, mesti tertekan bekerja jadi guru nih. cumanya, kalau dah besar, dia ingat balik, mesti dia nak bunuh diri.

malaysian masterchef.

i tot of joining, but, i couldnt attend the audition due to hari jumaat n sabtu (yeah, friday n saturday) working day, sabtu tu dah check ada LADAP. n my school susah bagi cuti except for wedding n kematian. the other day, one of my colleagues kawin, dapat satu hari cuti je. yeah. n plus, i have to free myself from anything due to the program from may tu august which i have asked my school, cuti tanpa gaji perlu dihantar 3 bulan sebelum. at least. yeah, so, dats it. ada yang cakap, just go trylah, maybe dapat. kalau dah dapat, nanti just cakap tak bolehla. however, dia ada agreement which we have to signed yang cakap we are able to free ourselves. ntahlah.mungkin bukan rezeki this time. esok pagi at 6 am, tarikh tutup penyertaan.

*was watching adnan sempit. i think the movie is a good malay movie sbb it really shows the malay culture (up to u to judge whether the culture is good or not). only a true malay would understand the jokes. n it reminds me of Iner. yes, Amalina Mohd.

*watched 10 mins of AF. yes, akademi fantasia. im not trying to burukkan or whatever but it is that bad. im trying to watch it with an open heart but i couldnt. i cant even stand it after 10 mins. im a big fan of reality tv shows especially when it comes to talents n i couldnt help myself looking for reasons for them to be in the show. like, seriously, susah nak carik.like, omg, seriously this is the best malaysia ada? i bet banyak lagi ada, tapi, yeah. its different when u watch american idol. u can feel the goose bumps u know. like, its a different and special feeling. i actually cried when listening to casey abrams's nature boy. its a different feeling because u will look so hard for their flaws because it is that good.

actually nak cakap pasal masterchef je, tapi, tak tahan sbb AF tu pening.

balang berisi hati

bila malam aku terbangun

mendengar dua hati bermusuhan

hatiku rapuh retak lalu rebah

Kamu yang aku sanjung

Kamu yang aku junjung

buat aku terdiam terduduk

di tepi situ

berkasih dan bermanja.

i cant remember the last time i smile when i woke up. i did this morning. not the bangun for the subuh one (huhu). but the 10am one. yes, thats what i did. i smiled.

its all because i gt to be in love with sum1 who is really famous in my dream. not only famous. but, tall, dark n handsome (i duno y anuar zain turn out to be so manly n muscular in my dream). plus point, he sings for me. yyeeehhhhhaaaa!!

we met in the plane which i duno where to n what cap is the kapal terbang. but his seat was beside me. when i first notice it was him, i get kinda confused. bukanke he looks very skinny based on the last time i saw him at kl sentral with jaygee. maybe he did some work out. n i first talked to him when i saw him reading kahlil gibran (pandai pembuat mimpi ni). so, we talked n we talked for few hours (i was wondering where could be the destination for this flight). n i duno how, but we woke up sleeping next to each other n i realised i landed my head to his shoulder (cliché sangat). n we talked again until it is almost time to land the airplane.

'saya, anuar zain'

'saya, syarifah'

'syarifah kerja apa?'

'saya, english teacher kat klang' (wakakakkakakakka)

'saya, penyanyi. erm, boleh kita borak2 lagi'

'gulp. yeah.'

'number phone?' sambil menghulurkan smart phonenya. cap apa , tak ingat.

we said goodbye n i waited for his call everyday. macam orang kata, mandi tak basah, tidur tak nyenyak n makan tak kenyang. ok, maybe kenyang tu kenyang jugak.

he called me after a few days n he asked me out. i was so excited, that i spend few hundreds buying a pair of cute shoe and a small black clutch. nak keluar dengan artis la katakan. perkara paling lawak is when he came to my house to pick me up, he came with a superbike. i was like, eh, biar betik ni anuar zain. ni lebih macam awie je. n since i live with all my realtives around me, all of them were at my house, nak tgk artislah katakan. lawak nak mati when i think about it again.

n we went to asia cafe. yeah. out of i duno how many good places at kl n selangor, asia cafe jugak. after all, this is my dream. huhu.we ate n we talked. we laughed. seriously, memang terbang tinggi di awan. sbb semua org lalu2 n tgk both of us. keluar dengan artis la katakan. n the psycho moment is when he actually sang a song guna lcd screen yang derang selalu tgk bola kat sebelah cyber cafe tu. tak boleh blah. serious weyh. nasib baik tak pinjam cd dr cetak rompak dealer there. huhu. he sang 'lelaki ini' n it became a mini concert where people berkumpul around him when he sings. rasa terbang di atas kayangan. attteeee!!!!

n suddenly i terbangun sbb chico (my cat) lompat on me. n i smiled.

i went to my pc and search for anuar zain's lelaki ini at youtube.

'ma, angah mimpi angah bercinta dengan anuar zain'

'mimpi bolehla. betul, ko ingat dia nak kat ko? (realistik sangat mama nih. heh.) tu yang kononnya pasang kuat2 lagu dia. anuar ibrahim konon'

'ma, anuar zain'

'eh.lupa pulak. anuar zain'

yeah. although its a dream, it made me smile until now. but i keep on asking myself, why do i always fall for people that i duno i cant get - a year 6 boy which is seriously tall, dark and handsome. n muscular. phewittttt.....

saja. mengorat2. singlelah katakan.

the light of the eye.

walaupun penat tahap dewa naga, aku bersyukur kepadaMu ya Allah;

team sekolah dibawah pengurusanku menang naib johan bola baling mssd daerah.gembira sangat sbb mukaku terbakar dan berbelang dek latihan berhari2 dari pagi ke petang melatih bola baling.

menghabiskan 3000 untuk tukar tayar baru kereta, thorough service untuk kereta dan bayar duit keta. sekarang gaji tinggal beberapa ratus sebab bayar duit sana sini. hmm. tapi, dah takde owe orang mana2 dah.

kaklong mengandung. teruja! congrats, kaklong!

*semoga hidup diberkati dan dilimpahi rahmatMu ya Allah.

dugaan percutian.

dear nad n etil,

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sekian, terima kasih.