christmas.

i never really like a teddy bear . i mean, im ok with it , but i dun fancy it.
but , this one , is different.






merry3 Christmas!!

i carry your heart with me

i went through some of my poetry and i ran into dis one. dis is from ee cummings and it is one of my favourite.one of the best. simple, yet so meaningful. i gave this poetry to my bf when i left for australia, last february.

I Carry Your Heart With Me
by EE Cummings.

i carry your heart with me
(i carry it in my heart)
i am never without it
(anywhere i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)

i fear no fate
(for you are my fate,my sweet)
i want no world
(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

family picnic.

since im off yesterday , me n my family went for a picnic at tasik shah alam. its been a while since our last time went picnic together. i still remember my mum used to be very busy preparing da stuff. n yesterday , its my turn n my sis's to prepare da picnic stuff for our family. we brought sandwich,fruits,n lotsa other stuff including scrabble to play with the whole family.. my dad picked a spot that has a clear view of tasik shah alam.

it was so relaxing. and it reminds me of how gud my old days were.

aidiladha n memory lane.

i woke up dis morning n to my suprise, my mum n sis busy cooking mee kuah . since im not at home last raya, they cook all da raya food. kuah kacang , nasi impit , ayam masak merah, kuih, bla2.im super happy. :)

but i gt to go to work at 2.30. yup2. enjoying my time there. tiring, of course. because most of da time , i have to be there from 10 in the morning until 10.30 at nite because im holding the shop keys since week 2. cool, but tiring. christmas is coming n stuff.

selamat hari raya aidiladha.
n come to memory lane , we gt lotsa stuff for ur loved ones n occasions ( very da promote ).

penang n kedah.

im going to penang n kedah for my family vacation with my uncle,auntie n grandma.looking forward for beautiful malaysian places . shades and my d60. yup2.

away for 1 and a half week.

impak maksima the musical.

i went to watch impak maksima the musical on its last day of showing. i never watch the movie before and since im very much interested in theater, doing it n watching it , so i decided to watch it. it was a very super last minute decision because i dun really favor those kinda genre. good to watch as a movie , i guess, but , thetre , its almost impossible to think that they can actually bring it on stage - racing n all action stuff. plus, its gud for me to watch it because when i wana talk about malaysian theater later , i know to give opinions based on diff genre.

its a good effort by everyone. produced by Din Wahab , the fashion designer and directed by ahmad Idham , but again , i agreed with some of the comments by viewers, maybe its not the right kind of movie to put it on stage ,furthermore, istana budaya . it is one of the budaya nowadays , but , lack of strength on the storyline and techniques, make it less suitable. it is not easy to put up an act on stage. its totally different from movie, because the audiences, far more different.

its a story , supposedly, sumting like tokyo drift , but it ends up like a love story, only the setting is like 20% tokyo drift. thres only two scenes where the professional drifter, AH, actually drift on stage. and the rest, its all about love and teenagers affairs. well, i didnt ask for much action , but it doesnt portrays the tittle of the movie fully. maybe they should write there Impak Cinta the musical so that people dun argue about the action scenes and their expectations on the theatre.

voice projection , is another issues that me n sum of other people think that its a turning point to that theatre. not clear and thres few lines , that most probably i think its a mat rempit ritual or i dunno, that we , audiences didnt get at all.two times. n altho zul huzaimy is an actor , but for musical, its important to have a good voice. amran , the co-star, have a nicer and better voice than him. good singing voice n voice projection. i dunno , but mebbe zul huzaimy gt more popularity than amran.

the song was ok, but the dancers were good. they also inserted few traditional malay songs and pantun. but it could be nicer if they actually show , maybe or at least one scene that has other malaysians in it , and not da modern one, because , looking at all the scenes, everyone is a gangster n mat rempit. i duno , its a suggestion.

i will give this theatre a 6++, based on my experiences watching theatre at istana budaya, klpac n few places. applause to AH for the drifting action on stage that really amazes me until now. that was the reason why i gave above 5, because i believe that u need the braveness and trust to do that on stage.

overall, its an ok theatre to watch. good effort and it shows that malaysians are climbing further up on the artistic part of everyday lives. it will give u a different feelings and experience. but , improvements can be made. sometimes, small things matter. n i agreed , that not all movies can should be on stage. sum , will be much better if remain as a movie. more actions can be done . because , for me , u need a whole lot of technique and experience, and also talented actors to put stuff on stage. yup2.

pglm the second is coming and after few weeks , half of the tix, finished edy. i watched the first one and im super excited to watch it second time because its damn good. so, people , "martabatkan mutu seni tanah air kita!! ". hehehhe. again, applause to the impak maksima the musical crew because of their effort and hardwork.

im home.

yey!!!

very super busy n excited.
i arrived on my birthday n had a blast birthday party.
thanks to everyone for my 21st birthday parties - 2 at aussie n 1 at malaysia.
n thanks for the presents. love u guys so much. hehhe.

im gona update about my birthday later.

saw V

i watched dis movie yesterday with arifah at indooroopily. It is an experience that i will not forget, especially watching it because i used to watch it at Malaysia, through the pirated one. well, of course, you cant get to watch it at Malaysian cinema. big screen , sound effects, and the scariness shown at arifah's face.

gory, psycho, and evil.

bella luna by jason mraz

ive been listening to it since 2005, and i always smile while listening to it.

Mystery the moon
A hole in the sky
A supernatural nightlight
So full but often right
A pair of eyes a closing one
A chosen child in golden sun
A marble dog that chases cars
To farthest reaches of the beach and far beyond into the swimming sea of stars

The cosmic fish they love to kiss
They're giving birth to constellations
No riffs and oh no reservation
If they should fall you get a wish or dedication
May I suggest you get the best
For nothing less than you and I
Let's take a chance as this romance is rising over before we lose the lighting
Oh bella bella please
Bella you beautiful luna
Oh bella do what you do
Do do do do do

You are an illuminating anchor
Of leagues to infinite number
Of crashing waves and breaking thunder
Tiding the ebb and flows of hunger
You're dancing naked there for me
You expose all memory
You make the most of boundary
You're the ghost of royalty imposing love
You are the queen and king combining everything
Intertwining like a ring around the finger, of a girl
I'm just a singer, you're the world
All I can bring ya
Is the language of a lover
Bella luna, my beautiful beautiful moon
How you swoon me like no other

May I suggest you get the best
Of your wish may I insist
That no contest for little you or smaller I
A larger chance yet, but all them may lie
On the rise, on the brink of our lives
Bella please
Bella you beautiful luna
Oh bella do what you do
Bella luna
My beautiful beautiful moon
How you swoon me like no other, oh oh oh

sum1

when sum1 came in ur life, they touch ur heart. and sumting happen. it feels like they snatched ur heart away.

until everything solved and theyll come back in ur life : theyll bring ur heart back to u.

rindu zaman bila kau ada bersama.
mungkin kita dah terlampau jauh.
tapi, aku harap kita sama macam dulu,
sebab ,
kau selalu ingatkan aku tentang sesuatu .

persaudaraan.

i wish, shes here with me.

love.

1. Andai kata cinta itu sebuah pengorbanan, mengapa pengorbanan itu bukan nokhtah sebuah cinta? Andai kata derita itu harga sebuah cinta, mengapa cinta itu semakin sukar dimiliki? Cinta seumpama ..kota kristal indah di penglihatan derita di perasaan...

2. Ada orang pada mulanya malu untuk jatuh cinta tapi bila perasaan menjadi rindu padanya, tiba-tiba perasaan malu itu menjadi hilang dengan sendirinya dan terpaksa menerima kenyataan yang sebenarnya bahawa anda telah jatuh cinta.

3. Gerak geri memberi pengertian kepada perasaan yang tidak terucap oleh kata-kata.

4. Cinta yang di semadikan tidak mungkin layu selagi adanya imbas kembali. Hati yang remuk kembali kukuh selagi ketenangan di kecapi. Jiwa yang pasrah bertukar haluan selagi esok masih ada. Parut yang lama pastikan sembuh selagi iman terselit di dada.

5. Cinta yang datang umpama pelangi ceria dengan 7 warna memukau saat bayu berlagu riang, tika itulah cintanya hadir. Apabila mata terlihat seseorg yang bakal mewarnai hidupnya.

6. Cinta bukan paksaan. Ia lahir dari dua perasaan, kehadirannya tidak diundang, perginya tiada yang merelakan kerana ia terlalu sukar untuk dimengertikan.

7. Persahabatan biasanya berakhir dengan percintaan tetapi percintaan tidak pernah berakhir dengan persahabatan.

8. Cinta bukan mengajar kita lemah tetapi membangkitkan kekuatan. Cinta bukan mengajar menghinakan diri tetapi menghembuskan kegagahan. Cintabukan melemahkan semangat tetapi membangkitkan semangat.

9. Apakah sebenarnya cinta itu? Cuba katakan. Tak lain tak bukan ialah dua jiwa dlm satu fikiran dan dua hati dlm satu debaran.

10. Cetusan cinta pertama merupakan suatu getaran yg sangat menggoncangkan jiwa.

11. Kadangkala kita menyedari betapa dalamnya kita menyintai seseorang, disaat kita sedang kehilangannya. Dan kadangkala kita juga menyedari betapa perlunya cinta seseorg terhadap kita, disaat kita amat memerlukannya.

12. Cinta yang lahir dari pandang pertama adalah cinta suci, manakala perasaan cinta yang lahir dr kemesraan persahabatan adalah cinta sejati. Namun sukar untuk membezakan yg mana lebih abadi, cinta suci atau cinta sejati.

so, tell me what u think .

touch the heart and touch the mind

When I was in my high school, I read a book called ‘A child called it’ by Dave Pelzer. It really inspires me until this second. It really taught me that courage and unyielding determination enabled anyone to get what they want in life. From reading that book, I also noticed that writing has a very powerful impact in our everyday lives. We tend to be influenced by materials that we read. Realising that fact, I decided to go for publishing.

For me, this life is about reaching your goal and work towards your dream. I am aware that people will definitely ask me why I choose publishing instead of architecture for my degree. During the process of doing my diploma, I realize that I am more interested in graphic design. As mentioned above, I realise the power of publishing – influence and inspire people, and this world cannot run from the fact that we live surrounded by publications. I always believe that by doing what we love is the best way to success in life. However, I have no regrets having a diploma in architecture due to the fact that I see it as a good foundation for my passion towards publishing.

I hope this degree in publishing will be an eye-opener for me to see the real world. Nothing is more rewarding than to write and design what is worth publishing, to find honest people to publish it, and get sensible people to read it. Because the result will be tremendous as it will definitely touch people’s heart and mind.

dia.

perempuan itu datang
membawa dia pergi
aku tak memahami
apa yang dihati
dia dan apa yang dicari

aku buntu dan kelu

pergi jika kau mahu pergi
jangan berpaling lagi
kau tolak apa yang ku tolak
kau tarik apa yang ditarik

lepaskan
kerna aku mahu kau pergi

sesuatu

berdiam
terduduk
tak mahu bersuara
kerna kau bukan aku
menari dan berlari
mengharap sepi yang menyendiri membawaku pergi
aku dan mereka
mereka dan kamu
hati ini terlampau gusar
jangan bertengkar pada perkara yang besar
nanti ada yang tersasar

diam
tunduk
dan berikhtiar

kau tahu apa yang aku putarkan.

them in my life.

whenever i talk about my family n friends back in malaysia, i will sound sad. but , dis time , in this post, im a bit excited because the hari raya is near, therefore, november is near.

i am very excited to go back to malaysia. yes. i really am , indeed.

my family.
i miss my family so much . maybe because they are the one that i normally go to when i have problems or i wana tell sumting dat is super exciting. especially my mum n sis. we can share stories like we are best friends. seriously , sumtimes people think dat me n my sis kinda rude to my mum by layaning her like our best friends, like bertepuk tampar n all, but , we are like dat. due to that kinda relationship, i never felt different or weird or anything if i wana tell my mum anything about me n my life. even how hot is justin to me, shes very aware of dat. n my sis. altho shes very alim because she went into sekolah agama n then now doing her law degree at uia, but she can actually accept for who i am ( not dat i say dat im not alim, but not DAT alim). hehheh. maybe because shes so damn baik, she normally treat me like a big sis because i am more ganas n firm dari dia. my bro , i miss him. altho hes being so super nakal n sumtimes masuk in the jahat category , but , i think ive been in that position before with all my frens. teenagers~. haahhaha. n my dad. he is the major reason y am i here in brisbane. at first, he force me to do dis, but now , im starting to see that this thing is relevant.

he wants me to be here so that i can study overseas + shopping like there is no yesterday.hhahahha.

nolah. shopping is one of the reason , but he knows me very well. it just, sumtimes, i couldnt notice it.

my friends.
i dun think anyone of my friends actually have friendship like mine. its weird, but real. like what nadia commented in my blog, ' you make it real for me' . they ( nad, etil, khif, farid n fadirul) are super weird, but they are wondeful friends. miss lepaking at pak li mabuk kopi, stalking the nyahs at lorong haji taib, makan besar at asia cafe, n lots of stupid stuff dat we do together .theyll be there for you when u need it and they say real things to u . like if i ask them whether my shoes or anything are cute, they will definitely say no if they think its not. i mean , i know its kinda harsh, but , they telling me the truth. dats y i love them so much. i dun see y people can actually tipu their frens just to jaga hati sedangkan ur frens are those people who are supposed to say real things to u. whether its good or bad, theyll be with u.

my boyfriend.
i miss him very much. he was there for me back then in malaysia, n so do now. im a one lucky girl, to be with him. lotsa challenges, but we always worked things out. as long as we dun stop believing in god and each other, we will be ok.

i just got my allowance. 6000 aud. im kinda worried last few days because im the only one who gt it late. a week late. since i have sum money to shop, the one that i normally keep every month, i have to not use it last week for shopping because im afraid that the money is not coming in. n since its here, ive started shopping last few days , which i really love the feeling when i shop. hehehhe. reminds me of the gud old days back at malaysia. ill post a blog on my shopping spree later.

i got 2 assignments to go before hari raya. and so far , im doing ok with it.

one n a half month to go.

it stopped.

when my mum said "sumtimes u wont get what u really want" ,

she really mean it.

finding myself.

ive been thinking a lot lately about whats happening in my life n other stuff around me. makes me cry, smile, laugh and sad. it just complicated.

home.
yes. i miss home. although i stil only have around 2 months to go before my flight back to malaysia, but i really miss home so much. and plus, is now ramadhan. since in one of those PBSM (persatuan balik setiap minggu) girls at ipba, i always wil be there at home for bukak puasa , at least every weekend. it just feel different without my family around. man, i really miss them. not just by the food, n the money , ehem, that they give me , but most importantly , their love.

friends.
aww.. man.. dis one, very sensitive. i can easily cried because of dat. i miss my frens so much.very2. they make me feel as a whole when we r together. because they let me be myself. n i can see how myself really r when with them.they just make me feel good n happy. they make me feel complete. yes, complete.

love.
tough one. its almost 2 years, n its getting more challenging especially when 2 hearts r so far away. we tend to be so emotional about that. n god really2 testing on our love now.

study.
kinda malas these few days. n i totally hate myself more dis semester. i need more time to do assignments. thank god i start early.but compared to last semester, i think i am more enthusiastic in learning sumting last semester. i duno y.

financial.
my money in the bank can stand until early october. for all the bills, food n leisure. i really hope te allowance wil be coming these few weeks. since , i havent ask any money from my parents , i really hope dat i dun have to do dat. im learning to stand on my own since i came here to australia. learning to take responsible of my own financial.

my malaysia.
waiting for 16th of september. been praying hard. never felt so emotional when talking about malaysia, but i really hope that its not going to end up like how people r describing it. we could not afford any changes in the government. i love my country, n people, please start appreciate ur own country. make it happen - unity. when u r overseas, u wil understand dis : "hujan emas di negara org, hujan batu di negara sendiri, lebih baik di negara sendiri". unity, dat wat makes us, a malaysian.

current interest.
sleeping and my new iPhone.i just bought an iPhone. 16gb. loving it very much. a pink+black iPhone which i named it pinkrain.


i really hope stuffs wil be fine.

2 months to go.

my bursa.

happy birthday to u ,

happy birthday to u ,

happy birthday to bursa ash,

happy birthday to u.

older and wiser.

xoxo,
syarifah

lifes like dat.

things started to get very busy lately. after the mysa's makan2, jg's sister is here , so , helping jg to bring her around. shes a nice lady. look pretty much like jg.

n the ekka.
ekka was fun. went there for two days because jg, zaim, acan, fad n kelsey were dancing for the international performances. helping out jg n the dancers to put some make up n cheer for them . thumbs up to all the malaysian dancers n pesilat n especially acan , for making the performance cun. hehhe. n obviously the showbags. it was almost the same like what i had in sydney for the easter show. goodie bags n sum cool stuff bag. i bought sum stuff for myself , n also for people. the rides were so tempting but i didnt go for any because was so malas to beratur. took sum pictures, of course n i had fun.


n my mum birthday was on last wednesday. on the 13th. i cried dat morning because i cant be there with her. this year , i sent her a bouquet of ferrero rocher which cost me 150++. money again. hehhe. but , im so happy when shes like very happy to receive it at school.

n last thursday , i went to gold coast with aiman, jude n amy because jude's mum n bro is here. we went fishing. one of my wish list at overseas is to go fishing n i did dat. i tot its gona be boring n stuff like dat , but to my suprise, it was nothing like wat i expected. it was fun, no mabuk laut, i managed to gt 4 fish (super excited about dat ). when we were on the boat , the dolphins were swimming all around us. i was so happy. cant believe my eyes. n theres penyu too, floating n swimming on the sea water. super cantik. n the best part is , we got to do whale watching too. i gt to see the whales. how cool is dat. since im supposed to go for a whale watching with jan last july , but , i didnt manage to do it , it was so good, to finally got to watch them. they were huge n splashing the sea water everywhere. n i was on my fishing boat for about 6 hours. n i didnt get bored at all. the waves r seriously dangerous, where we have to be alert all the time. n its windy. such a great experience.
zul n hanes is here for their holiday. went jalan2 city n southbank n west end with them yesterday. went to pancake manor too.again. its like a must go place at brisbane. hehhe.

super busy nowadays because of assignments but im excited, because november is near.yey!!

nad n her late father.

im having fever n i didnt go to class this morning. i dun feel ok n i miss home very much n i feel bad for not being with my bestfriend, nad, back in malaysia. her dad passed away dis morning.

she text me last nite saying dat her dad was in icu because of sum chest problem. i text her back , saying dat ill always be with her n things will be fine. i started to feel sick since yesterday. maybe the weather or maybe it jus my bad feeling. when i recited the holy quran last night, my ear started to feel uncomfortable. what me n my family believe is, thres people who just passed away. but , of course, i dun feel anything since i jus called everyone back home n everyone is fine.

when i was at zaims house, nad text me. i feel bad for not being with her since she is my best friend n we have known each other since standard one. both our family r very close to each other. later that nite, i called my mum told her dat cik alias ( nad's dad ), in icu. i also text farid , asking him to teman nad n look after her. i was praying so hard dat nothing happen.i dun stay too long at zaims house because i dun feel well, n once i came back home, i talked to ash for while, n head to bed.

i woke dis morning , performed my subuh prayers n then my mum called. i knew it was sumting bad because its too early in the morning. my mum said, nad called n her dad passed away. i was damn shocked n i cried. i called everyone, etil n farid n nad to say im sorry i cant be there n take a good care of nad. it is so unexpected. n altho nad looks like sum1 who is strong , but i knw deep down, dis is a very huge turning point in her life. n i feel very bad for not being there with her.

her dad was a funny man. n wise too. he always makes jokes like my dad. sum people always mistaken him with my dad. n he loves keroncong so much. whenever we lepak at nad's house , the dad will be there singing keroncong with the karaoke system. ive knew him since i was small n my dad n him used to work in the same office for years. theyre gud frens. n dats y i can feel the sadness. as a whole.

ive been missing home very bad lately. with stuff going on here. it becme worst when dis happened. ive checked tix, flight tickets to malaysia jus now. so expensive . ive been telling myself to be patience. things will be ok. but i cant stop crying , n feeling so bad because i cant be there with nad. im supposed to be there , be with her. im sori.

al-fatihah to her late father. hes a good man. very. may Allah bless him .

new zealand trip.

class started yesterday , so i dun really have time to write an entry about my new zealand trip which i describe it as a precious journey in my life.

i took a flight after ncg , on the 6th of july to christchurch. due to sum problems , i didnt manage to meet nisah n co. i stayed with aiman , mint n pikah at stonehurst backpackers. when we arrived , it was the glorious 4 degrees. damn cold. but we survived through the whole nz journey. the next day , we started our road trip -me,jg,faris,nisah n ati on an estima van. one of the must-do things here at oversea for me , is road trip n yes , it was a great one. we drove to queenstown the next day n we stayed at pinewood backpackers.

da pinewood backpackers was on the hil n it was -9 degrees when we arrived. it was a small town but superb scenery.should go n view my nz picture in my flickr or frenster. we stayed for three days there n we actually can memorize the road there because its a small town. we met dyau n hanif there. it was a bit weird tho , both of them travelled together. weird companion, but , they do survive together. dyau with his coffee and hanif with his new hair. on the last day there, we took cable car to the top of the i-dunno-wats-da-name hill. we played the luge. damn awesome. 3 rides . n i did bungee jump. yes. i did BUNGEE JUMP. it was 400m high n it was a once in a lifetime experience. it was scary , n i duno wat i was thinking that time , but i did it . done with another must-do list. at nite , we watched the kiwi haka performance. damn cun. everyone who went to nz n didnt watch any haka performance, seriously wasted. hot guys with wonderful voice. seriously.

the next day , we made the move to dunedin but we decided to stop at invercargil. we stopped at an art gallery park. at this park , thres this mansion which they turned it into an art gallery. beautiful scenery. it is situated beside a farm n theres kids playing at the park. lovely2 feelings.

we arrived at dunedin at night and we went to a food market at the university of otago. it was under the international association for that uni. we ate nasi katok from brunei , damn spicy , nasi lemak from malaysian students, superb satay from indonesian people and sum nasi with gravy from a muslim association. that nite , i also went to watch a snowboarding competition at the uni area. damn cool.we stayed at ontop backpackers. we experienced sum scary stuff there. maybe its an old place.the next day at dunedin, we went to cadbury world. it was ok. who loves choc like damn love it , should go there. they brought us to see inside the factory , how to make choc n into dis one tower where thres a choc fountain infront of us. we also gt free chocs. it was a great feeling to be there. once in a lifetime. they actually mentioned that they got the cocoa fruit from malaysia. MALAYSIA. hehhe. we went to the museum n art gallery n the building there is damn nice. scottish blend.n thres a rugby match between all blacks n springboks. everyone were looking forward for it. but , all blacks didnt win. 28-30. last try by the visitor. the last nite , we ate spagetti at nisah's fren, tasha's house. cute house n the person too.

we head back to christchurch n we stayed at charlie b's backpackers. we spent the night looking for halal food n playing cards. the next day , me, jg n ati went to the city n we bought tix for the tram n punting. it was a superb experience, the tram n the punting. thres a band called sunshine, playing themusic n sing songs on the tram . we went to the canterbury museum, artgallery n botanical garden.n the punting . the punter name is philip n he is from us, hot, super hot infact, n with awesome sense of humour. i then being told dat my aunty, my maklong , passed away. al-fatihah to her. such a fine lady. it gave me a struck at first. shes damn nice . the sad thing is ,shes my dad's sis , n we cant get through my dad because hes at indonesia for sum work stuff.

the , we took bus to picton n we stopped for a while at kaikora. it was a 5 hours journey on the bus n it sucks. i dun like it. prefer flights or anything else , other than bus. i puke when i arrived at picton. we took a ferry from there. well, it is not like a ferry,a cruise mayeb because they have places to eat, cinema, games n other stuff in dat ship. i watched a horror movie on the journey n we arrived at wellington at nite.

we stayed at arifah's house. her house is on the hill. it is more like a chalet. because nice view of wellington from the backyad. i cooked most of the time there because she have this beautiful large kitchen which i adore very much. we cooked , nasi lemak, tomyam, ayam rempah, roti jala n cheesecake. n we n other ipba people hangout at ' cinta restaurant'. the food was ok. i met shirley,eva,nisrin,sharq,yusman,aiman n chouji there.after the dinner , we went to all the ipbarians house to say hi. we stayed there for two days, n we did went to the tepapa museum,an art gallery , train station n the city. it is a nice n lovely place but its very hilly.

our flight to auckland was on the 15th and we stayed at nisah n crew house. i stayed in dzeti's room. we spent most of our time cooking there n watched horror movies every night. n theres this one night , we watched the love guru. we ate outside food a lot too also. lotsa halal foods. we went to the museum, auckland domain n the ity. the city is just 5 mins walk from their place. hangout most of the time with the guls,dyau, hanif, faris n aiman. i met mira,akma con , ain, dzeti, hisyam n wira there. such a nice feeling to be there. wonderful people with wonderful place , with wonderful activities n wonderful food.

my flight back to brisbane was last sunday n i arrived clv at nite.

it was a wonderful winter break. looking forward to be back at malaysia. :)

unity.

ncg (national conference games) just finished here at australia with everyone gathered at queensland. im one of the committee as im one of the official photographers for the event. i enjoyed doing it since photography is one of my fav stuff to do here at overseas. taking sporting events is quite new to me but it was really worth it. such an experience. i worked really hard taking pictures with superb movement n capture it with my d60. for the first day , my 2gb memory card was full n it kinda shocked me because i cant remember when was the last time i did dat. 2gb full, n its not even a whole day event.

i met people from diff state in australia since the real objective of dis event is to unite malaysian students here. i met sze huey, my close-fren when i was in MGS. she represent act ( Canberra) for badminton. we hangout the 2nd day, n had lunch together. its very sweet because its been quite sum time we didnt get to talk like we did in school especially during primary school. i was a head prefect back then n shes my assistant , n we will talk on the phone after school for hours, talking about school, frens n life. the good old days.

one of the big issue that we touched that day is unity, how is it influence malaysian n stuff. we get into a conclusion where it is hard , especially now , to unite people , especially when those ppl came from diff races. the cultural diversity really influence our everyday lives , hence, our perception towards sumting. n thats when unity cme in. looking at malaysia now , i am afraid that what i have in mind is true and i hate to say that its the truth.

i still remember when i was in school or back in klang, i always thought that unity is there between the community. if not for every malaysian citizen , but at least in my community. when i was in school ,we were frens to each other. there is no such things as diff races as we saw ourselves as a malaysian. the only thing dat differ us is the religion and colour. we managed to become sisters and still are now.

but im here now , im 21, n i see the scope in a larger view. n the definition of the word unity and everything dat has sumting to do with it , changed. maybe its because , its the real world now or maybe it just because of those people that i knw now see dat thing differently. and i always ask my self, why cant we be like those days where unity is not a problem and we see ourselves as a family that live happily and peacefully on the same piece of land ? izit because those perception is never true because i was a child back then ? or izit because we are too selfish when we are in real world n wil do anything to get our ass on top of other people?

there was a fight during ncg between the delegates. obviously , the main objective failed. n its a shame thing to be remembered by all the malaysian students. furthermore, wat happen in malaysian politics now , gave us second thoughts about it.

i wish i was 10 years old now where everyone lives happily together without having to worry about unity.

me n the world.

i woke up dis morning to see sumting wrong with my skype phone. my three pink skype phone. it is very useful to me but it always brings problem to me. it sucks sumtimes, but, i cant really complain much about it.

i bought dis three pink skype phone when i first came here. other than voda, dis is my second line which i use it among chrt4 qut peeps n skype with people especially with my family n ash. it is very useful , but it doesnt really give a diff if u wana save on the bills. its about how u control it . not about the phone , line , watsoever.

it is a mobile phone but with a built in skype in it. they have extra buttons jus for skype n i gt free 4000 messages and 1000 mins of using skype call. dat is normally how i use to call malaysia. but , i didnt save much on the bills since i gt to call people who r not using three and skype most of the time. for example , malaysia airlines, national australian bank, bla2.

dis is da phone :
so , now , i have to go to the city n fix the phone.

love,syarifah

doing nothing.

woke up in the morning. feel bored. what kinda life is dat? first feeling in the morning is boredom ? hehhe.

hmmm, since my last paper was on 7th of june , ive been staying at home, doing nothing. i went to city few days back n seaworld last week. it was totally fun, but , the rest of the holiday, im bored.

since i cant go out because i tend to buy lotsa2 stuff , hhehehe, so , i will normally lepaking at home. wake up early , for subuh , n sleep again, n then wake 8-9. will then do my wii fit for normally 1 hour. i enjoy doing dat since i dun have anything else to do beside eating. i will mandi, breakfast /brunch, n then , i will start feeling bored . its either i walk around kelvin grove or window shopping at woolys or watching dvd dat i always borrow from the library , or like yesterday hangout at my frens house. hehhe. n i will cook dinner , watching tv at nite , n i will sleep around 10-12 oclock at nite.

dat will be my daily routine. if i dun have anything to do, i will eat. yup2 last resort, eat.

cant wait for my nz trip. hopefully its gona be fun . yup2.

love, syarifah.

my donut journey.

im not sure whether people know dis thing , but im used to be called donut when i was small. not dat i was called donut because im chubby, but because i do love to eat donut.here is sumting about me and my donut journey.

malay donut

it started when my mum loves to make donut at home. da malay donut. with sugar all over it. n its not even flour-ish sugar, but , its da type of sugar where u can see it bit by bit. n i love dat very much. normally my mum will keep it , sometimes for my sister or my dad, n i remember stole it from da cupboard.i cant do anything , i love donut.hehe. well, kids those days love to eat sweet things n i do too. but not now. i cant stand da sweetness. n the passion towards donut continue when im in school. although its not dat nice like the one my mum did, but , it still a donut. i have to line up to buy it , im not sure y people love donut so much when i was at school. i guess their name is donut too.i duno.

dunkin' donuts

when i was about 10, i think its on my sister's birthday , my dad brought a new version of donut back home. it is called dunkin donuts. there was no dunkin donuts franchise watsoever in klang those days. i was so happy,because its a donut, but sumting on top, other than the sugar. colours, nuts, cream.perfect.my fav is blueberry.love the jam in it. and strawberry too.

big apple donut

when im at ipba, dat is when i was 18, i gt to know big apple. i first ate it when i was in foundation years n my first big apple donut is from the curve. i like it. because the donut is more nicer, its softer than any donut i ate before. and more flavor. green tea is my favourite. not sweet , but not tasteless. and some new ( i think brilliant) flavors that i discovered., that can be placed on a donut - durian n chicken floss (or malay call it serunding). and my ash love it too. still remember that we ran to buy big apple donuts for his parents when i first wana meet them. memories.

j.co donut

a brilliant donut label from indonesia. never expect it came from indonesia , but, it is. the first franchise in malaysia , and its at pavilion. n people love it like hell. because its da first in malaysia. dis donut, reminds me of jg, she actually ran for the donut shop in pavilion.its really satisfy us dat day, when we get to eat it. hehhe.for me, its something like big apple, no big difference , but more classy flavors and promotions. my fav , still green tea and alcapone.

krispy kreme

i first gt my hand on it last march when i visit ashwin n crew at sydney. at macquarie centre. we bought a box of 12. i remember working on my assignment at sydney , with a cup of tea and krispy kreme donut. :) . its REALLY sweet. its worth it , but i cant eat a lot, because of the sweetness. when i ate it at sydney , there is no franchise of krispy kreme at brisbane. but last month , they opened a new one here. n da line is so crazy. people can actually wait in that long line just to taste the donut. reminds me of j.co. my fav cinnamon apple. da smell of it,makes me smile. i love it.



whatever the brand is , i still love the traditional malay donut. reminds me a lot of my childhood. and dat doesnt stop me from getting my hands on new labels of donut in the future. people say , u will get to know more knowledge when u travel more, n yes, i gt to taste da donut too.hehhe. :)

note : no offence to those makcik that i bought donut from them before in my life and i didnt mention it in this page. i appreciate ur donut too. i only include the major donut label. hehhe. :P

love, syarifah.

kfc.

remember in the last post , i did mentioned about how i miss my home n malaysia. its like god, answering my prayers, n rosy, ayu n crew, ended up in halal kfc in indoroopily( not sure bout the spelling tho). n yup2. we ordered it. 2 pieces of chicken for everyone and coleslow. its like a dream come true. we shouted when the kfc arrived. i took some pictures of it.


it is very sikit compared that me n my family ate back when i was in malaysia. yes. my family loves kfc. very much. n my ash too. but , im very happy that i got to eat it yesterday. happy mode~

me and the tears

i cant sleep, n its like 3 sumting here.for da first time, im stil up dis late. i tried to sleep, but , my sickness doesnt allow me to. flu+fever.terible.i cried so bad jus now because i miss my family n frens a lot n what he did to me.

i miss my family n frens. these few days, due to the sickness, im a bit sensitive when people talk about families n frens. i miss them, really. especially when problems like dis occur. i normally would talk to my frens or my family when i have problems. not so about da problem , but sumting to talk to, let go of "the emotions'. but i cant do it here. n its very sad. especially my mum, because i normally talk about life stuff with her.and although people may think dat my frenship with my frens back home as crazy or whatever, but we love each other a lot.i really miss them now.

cant sleep, stil with tears.

fever and winter

the winter is here.

cold, windy,jacket n for me, fever.

it reminds me of home, when my mum will take care of me.

cant get through her.shes in bandung with her friends.

sob3.

troy

for how many times , i duno , i watched troy last nite at TV. it was good. love it till the ned. cried. n the closing song. superb. by josh groban , remember me.

Remember:
I will still be here
As long as you hold me
In your memory

Remember:
When your dreams have ended
Time can be transcended
Just remember me

I am the one star
That keeps burning so brightly
It is the last light
To fade into the rising sun
I'm with you whenever
You tell my story
For I am all I've done

Remember:
I will still be here
As long as you hold me
In your memory
Remember me…

I am that one voice
In the cold wind that whispers
And if you listen
You'll hear me call across the sky
As long as I still can
Reach out and touch you
Then I will never die

Remember:
I'll never leave you
If you will only
Remember me…

(Remember me…)

Remember:
I will still be here
As long as you hold me
In your memory
Remember:
When your dreams have ended
Time can be transcended
I live forever
Remember me
Remember me
Remember…
Me…

him.

deep.very deep.

"Hari ini, Mei 19, 2008 saya mengumumkan keputusan saya untuk keluar daripada UMNO. Isteri saya turut bersama.

Keputusan ini dibuat kerana UMNO yang ada sekarang bukan lagi UMNO yang ditubuh 62 tahun dahulu yang berjuang untuk bangsa Melayu, Agama Islam dan Negara Malaysia (Malaya); UMNO yang menggagalkan Malayan Union, memperjuangkan kemerdekaan Malaya dan Malaysia dan membangunkan Malaysia sehingga menjadi Negara yang termaju di antara Negara membangun di dunia.

UMNO yang ada sekarang hanya wujud untuk menyokong Dato Seri Abdullah Ahmad Badawi, keluarganya dan tindakan serta dasar yang tidak secocok dengan kepentingan bangsa, agama dan negara."

quoted from tun mahatihir's blog.

lately.

i feel bored. although i still have one assignment to go before dis sem ends. and i gt two exam coming. not sure y , but , im jus malas. yes, malas. i filled up my time with lotsa games, i mean , computer games n wii.

last 2 years, im a casual gamer. as in , i play when i feel like it. but , nowadays, due to the boringness, i end up playing games most of the time. plus the wii that i bought.here is the games that i play lately :

need for speed : most wanted
hmm.. ive been playing dis since i duno when but im determined to finish up every race they have. im crawling to the highest blacklist. not dat easy , but, im trying . now , i have 2 cars , impounded, waiting to be released. sometimes, when i gt busted , i tend to become so emotional. yup2. n my housemates always said that they always feel like they live beside a racing circuit ( due to the race sound). hehhe. sorry peeps.

jojo's fashion show
i managed to finish up this game in 2 days time. well, i think if i played this game 24 hours straight, im gona finish it in 1 day. it was fun. about fashion. artistic n colours. n i love the quality of picture. yup2. n i love when they say " u r a fashion goddess!" hahahha. i wish.

pairs
old school. some chinese study program. it is cute with pokemon creature.it is very challenging because u cant pause or save the game. it just like dat.

wii
yup2. wii sports+wii play+wii fit and some games that i borrowed from the library. love the wii sports especially the bowling game and baseball. it really feel like im playing it , like, really real. hehhe. n wii play , i know this is for kids, but i love the billiard game. always end up foul at first , but , working on it. wii fit - the fitness centre. kinda busy when first bought it , but i normally woke up early in the morning after subuh to do some fitness training. n i got a male trainer. yummy!!. hehhee. its really a brilliant game. combining fitness n game. who said , gamer is da one who always sit at a couch n play game? hehhe. n thanks for da gaming facility from qut library. i borrowed few wii games from the library n enjoy them. mario party,resident evil, ssx blur and alien syndrome. it gives me varieties and its fun.

and one last game - find a word puzzle.
its not a game2, since its in a book, its like crossword puzzle. i bought the book from bordres when i went shopping for winter clothes at chermside last monday.its really testing on my accuracy. and its all word.learning some new words from there too.

yeah , dats all da game dat ive been playing these few days. i know i have to start on my assignment, yup2.maybe tonight. hehhe

southbank.again.

southbank
10th may
me,jg,chicky,ka,hassan,n zaim
fish n chips,pancakes
fireworks,concert,movie(what happen in vegas),eating session,photo session ( me as the photographer).
pics speak better.

busy week

yup2. busy week. just handed in my wip draft. taking few days break before the next assignment. hehehe.

last week i went to a theater at roma parklands wif jan, ja, nora, chicky n fad.it was really nice and we learn a lot of things dat local people does. they normally have picnic-kind-of-theater, where they dun dress, and they bring lotsa food and comfy kit, like da cushions and fleeces. and thank god, we didnt over-dressed, except fad. but she looks beautiful dat nite. n we were there hungry while watching the theater , u know when people having salad, burger, and wine. n we didnt bring any pillows n all. n its freezing cold because of the wind. its an open stage and its in the middle of a park. as in , like a huge garden. n its beautiful. n the theater was awesome, very few people n they kinda recycle the actors few time. simple, i can say , energetic and sweet. forgt to mention , its romeo n juliet. with a simple backdrop and very little props.n cute actors with powerful characters. its a good theater, wif a good approach of romeo n juliet. yeah. artistic, meaningful and effective. n of course we learn something from it. read carefully wat type of theater are we going to. hehhe.
da best thing about it is , i get to see sweet things happening. theres dis couple. an old couple, really enjoyed being there. they brought food, and wine. and theyre old. its like the feeling when young people watch movie , but they went to a theater. its a sweet feeling.really. and most of the crowd, came with family. n their daughters and sons. u know how hard to get such sight at Malaysia. maybe i shall do it at Malaysia later. will be awesome.
n jan drove us home. it was so sweet of her to come and join us for the theater. before we end dat nite, we took some pictures, jus infront of clv, u know , since fad dressed up so beautifully. and dat was it. my first theater at brisbane. and i hope theres more to come. hoping to continue watching plays n theaters here, like how i did at Malaysia.

wink.wink.

a year together.

its been a year me n him together. ups n downs. no one can tell what kinda path we went through. like all the fairy tales, happiness will only be achieved if u went through hell a lot of challenges and circumstances. we did went all dat thing. n many to come. but , im proud to say that we are still together after a year. hehhe.

he sent me dis tuberoses live plant, for me to grow. im shocked because suddenly theres a parcel for me and its written there live plant. and when im on my way from the office down stairs going back to my room, theres a local girl mentioned dis to me :

'its like christmas, u dun know wat to get"

hehe. kinda. n when i opened the parcel , dis is wat i get :







yup2. but of course without the jar.its tuberoses. yup2. orked n jason. sepet.

n that makes me love him so much.

hopefully theres more years to come. n never stop.