result.

I didnt get 4 flat. But i managed to go through next sem. That is all that matters for me when doing it part time.

Alhamdulillah.

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ramadhan.

Beberapa hari tak dpt tidur dgn betul. Ada je kerja. Sumpah penat. Rasa macam buruh kasar baru balik dr kerja dekat lombong bijih timah. Nasib baik esok dah start puasa. Boleh ada lbh banyak masa untuk diri sendiri dan tuhan.

Salam ramadhan semua.

Semoga kita semua lebih dekat padanya, insyaAllah.

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The End.

Ini yang kau mahukan, bukan?

*tepuk tangan.

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eid mubarak.

To everyone here, at home. N to my relatives at the holy land n to the rest of muslims. May this day brings out the best of us n may we will be blessed by Him. InsyaAllah.

*prayers to all Muslims whose fighting for illness or his blessing during this holy period. Dun give up on Him.

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morning lotus.

I walk on Monday morning with so much hope that everything will turn out good this week. Like what arifah posted, for some, happiness comes easily, but for some, u really need to work for it.

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dia.

zul, sila turun ke kl secepat mungkin.
rindu zaman2 bermain guitar bersama.
terima kasih.

p/s : salam ramadhan almubarak untuk semua.
semoga bulan ini kita dirahmati dan dikasihiNya.
insyaAllah.

sayap yang patah.

i cant sleep last night. theres sumting that is missing from me. so, i browse through my bookshelf and i found the old dramatic book, 'the broken wings' by khalil. like what i have discussed in my book club earlier, it is cheesy, but i found it sweet if u r in his position, in love and trying to pour all his feelings and emotions through words. i read it again for i duno how many times last night until early in the morning. i cried badly last night because somehow i can still feel how i felt when being left by sum1 we really love. its like watching hindustan, korean , japanese n those sad love stories. u can actually drown in ur own tears.

how i miss watching movies with the princhesters now.

'In every young man's life there is a "Selma" who appears to him suddenly

while in the spring of life and transforms his solitude

into happy moments and fills the silence of his nights with music.'

-the broken wings, khalil gibran-

current obsession

bubba gump.high heels.three-holes-ring

alhamdulillah.

im still here.breathing.praise to Allah.

ren.

i have a student. a form five student who i teach English every week. last night, he opened up to me asking me to help him solve his love problems.

i used to be him the last time i remember. but now, im helping my student to solve his love problem. i actually used a paper, and a pencil to help us went through the session because he loves to draw and he finds it difficult to start. he drew the problems, people involved ; i find the whole session, super cute and we managed to come out with few suggestions and solutions.we kinda did a mind map, if he choose that one particular choice, this is what hes gona get. good thing is, i gave him options.

i feel like i am katherine heigl in 27 dresses. dok menyibuk tolong org bercinta, but myself.. hm...

and my student has an imaginary friend, named Ren who tells him what to do, and share ideas and opinions all the time. yeah, i wana laugh at first, but when he told me how real and true his imaginary friend is, i kinda , u know, blend in.

oh, i feel so old.

mahakarya

sampai masa tibanya waktu

redup hati kamu berdua

bila dua jasad bersatu

hidup mati jadi bersama

most beautiful i had ever seen from her.

agnes monica - karena ku sanggup.

ringing.NOT.

working my ass out to generate a test paper for the next test. i think im a bit bias because i tried to look for questions that will not burden my students that much. note: my students r from the last 4 classes out of 14 classes. i guess the good students will get superb result unless they didnt know what a 'clown' is too because none of my students (160 of them) know what a clown is. yes, its true.

its funny because u often get headache when u r trying to teach them in class because not all will pay their attention n interest to u after u have worked so hard preparing your teaching materials. u still are worry about their performance. hmm. some of them will actually be super overjoyed if they can go out from ur class during english because they could not even bothered to learn anything at school - they will not bring any books that is related to your subject and they think that english will eternally be foreign to them.

i guess parents n their surroundings play a very important role to the kids. due to the fact that they did not realize how important english in their life, they jus dun care . they jus dun care. at all. in fact, not only english, almost all the subjects.

i know they are improving. n im thankful for that. but, lately, i think im loosing the grip.

i just need to tighten it up a bit.

nirmala.

Sesungguhnya berkasihlah

Di antara manusia

Perindah segala kata-kata

Bahagia itu janjinya

Mengapa kita sengketa

Rentaslah jalan terbuka

Tanpa dusta

patah hilang tumbuh berganti

TOBY - My new baby.

T.R.U.S.T

trust is a big word. for everyone. not just to lovers or friends, but also to family members. it is sumting that is so precious that u almost cant gain back if you lost it. maybe u can , but u have to go through all over again.

for those we love, it is important to trust your loved ones. sum said, dun trust ur partner 100%. but, for me, when something happened like gossips, rumours, u have to go back to ur trust on ur partner. if u put ur trust on him, u will try to ask things around first before u jump into conclusion. n when u have done that, then only u can decide to put ur trust. either he will loose it or he still have ur trust. trust will determine your love to that person. trust will let u forgive them .trust will let u keep ur love last longer and trust will let u hold on to those you love. trust will never let u give up on those u love. but when u dont trust them anymore, the love that u cherished the most will be gone, in a second.

im jus asking you to think back of the reason why this thing happened. if u trust people more and if this is solely his fault, then, u can start to walk away. but i always think that problems can be solved as long as u still have ur trust on those u love and never let go. hold on to ur love because thats what keeping both of u together. n y want to waste it by some rumours?marriage is not something we pick when we walk and we can just drop it when we no longer have feelings for that particular sum1. its a devotion of two souls that trust each other. be there for better or worse. but, once u have a negative feelings towards ur own marriage and pointing fingers is the only thing u do, check again about the meaning of ur marriage. u r not loving the other person. u r using them. it is supposed to be two sides worth of effort. if something is wrong, both sides are responsible.

when u try to point fingers at people, maybe u should stop and think back. is there anything that u have done to cause this problem? maybe its time to evaluate urself - im doing the same thing too.

i need a new start.

bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

everything.

i duno what did i do wrong but everything is being snatched away from me.
literally EVERYTHING.

im not sure this is the start of my karma or this is the end.

thanks to those who cares.may Allah grant u a better life than what i have now. insyaAllah.

betulkan saya.

bila kau mencuba yang terbaik, tetapi kau tetap gagal
bila kau dapat apa yang kau mahukan, tetapi bukan apa yang kau perlukan
bila kau tidur sepanjang hari tetapi kau masih tidak mahu berhenti
terperangkap dalam putaran
bila air mata mengalir tanpa henti
bila kau hilang sesuatu yang tiada berganti
bila kau sukakan seseorang tetapi tiada akhirnya nanti
bolehkah menjadi lebih teruk dari ini?


diam.tidur.hilang.

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