nad n her late father.

im having fever n i didnt go to class this morning. i dun feel ok n i miss home very much n i feel bad for not being with my bestfriend, nad, back in malaysia. her dad passed away dis morning.

she text me last nite saying dat her dad was in icu because of sum chest problem. i text her back , saying dat ill always be with her n things will be fine. i started to feel sick since yesterday. maybe the weather or maybe it jus my bad feeling. when i recited the holy quran last night, my ear started to feel uncomfortable. what me n my family believe is, thres people who just passed away. but , of course, i dun feel anything since i jus called everyone back home n everyone is fine.

when i was at zaims house, nad text me. i feel bad for not being with her since she is my best friend n we have known each other since standard one. both our family r very close to each other. later that nite, i called my mum told her dat cik alias ( nad's dad ), in icu. i also text farid , asking him to teman nad n look after her. i was praying so hard dat nothing happen.i dun stay too long at zaims house because i dun feel well, n once i came back home, i talked to ash for while, n head to bed.

i woke dis morning , performed my subuh prayers n then my mum called. i knew it was sumting bad because its too early in the morning. my mum said, nad called n her dad passed away. i was damn shocked n i cried. i called everyone, etil n farid n nad to say im sorry i cant be there n take a good care of nad. it is so unexpected. n altho nad looks like sum1 who is strong , but i knw deep down, dis is a very huge turning point in her life. n i feel very bad for not being there with her.

her dad was a funny man. n wise too. he always makes jokes like my dad. sum people always mistaken him with my dad. n he loves keroncong so much. whenever we lepak at nad's house , the dad will be there singing keroncong with the karaoke system. ive knew him since i was small n my dad n him used to work in the same office for years. theyre gud frens. n dats y i can feel the sadness. as a whole.

ive been missing home very bad lately. with stuff going on here. it becme worst when dis happened. ive checked tix, flight tickets to malaysia jus now. so expensive . ive been telling myself to be patience. things will be ok. but i cant stop crying , n feeling so bad because i cant be there with nad. im supposed to be there , be with her. im sori.

al-fatihah to her late father. hes a good man. very. may Allah bless him .

new zealand trip.

class started yesterday , so i dun really have time to write an entry about my new zealand trip which i describe it as a precious journey in my life.

i took a flight after ncg , on the 6th of july to christchurch. due to sum problems , i didnt manage to meet nisah n co. i stayed with aiman , mint n pikah at stonehurst backpackers. when we arrived , it was the glorious 4 degrees. damn cold. but we survived through the whole nz journey. the next day , we started our road trip -me,jg,faris,nisah n ati on an estima van. one of the must-do things here at oversea for me , is road trip n yes , it was a great one. we drove to queenstown the next day n we stayed at pinewood backpackers.

da pinewood backpackers was on the hil n it was -9 degrees when we arrived. it was a small town but superb scenery.should go n view my nz picture in my flickr or frenster. we stayed for three days there n we actually can memorize the road there because its a small town. we met dyau n hanif there. it was a bit weird tho , both of them travelled together. weird companion, but , they do survive together. dyau with his coffee and hanif with his new hair. on the last day there, we took cable car to the top of the i-dunno-wats-da-name hill. we played the luge. damn awesome. 3 rides . n i did bungee jump. yes. i did BUNGEE JUMP. it was 400m high n it was a once in a lifetime experience. it was scary , n i duno wat i was thinking that time , but i did it . done with another must-do list. at nite , we watched the kiwi haka performance. damn cun. everyone who went to nz n didnt watch any haka performance, seriously wasted. hot guys with wonderful voice. seriously.

the next day , we made the move to dunedin but we decided to stop at invercargil. we stopped at an art gallery park. at this park , thres this mansion which they turned it into an art gallery. beautiful scenery. it is situated beside a farm n theres kids playing at the park. lovely2 feelings.

we arrived at dunedin at night and we went to a food market at the university of otago. it was under the international association for that uni. we ate nasi katok from brunei , damn spicy , nasi lemak from malaysian students, superb satay from indonesian people and sum nasi with gravy from a muslim association. that nite , i also went to watch a snowboarding competition at the uni area. damn cool.we stayed at ontop backpackers. we experienced sum scary stuff there. maybe its an old place.the next day at dunedin, we went to cadbury world. it was ok. who loves choc like damn love it , should go there. they brought us to see inside the factory , how to make choc n into dis one tower where thres a choc fountain infront of us. we also gt free chocs. it was a great feeling to be there. once in a lifetime. they actually mentioned that they got the cocoa fruit from malaysia. MALAYSIA. hehhe. we went to the museum n art gallery n the building there is damn nice. scottish blend.n thres a rugby match between all blacks n springboks. everyone were looking forward for it. but , all blacks didnt win. 28-30. last try by the visitor. the last nite , we ate spagetti at nisah's fren, tasha's house. cute house n the person too.

we head back to christchurch n we stayed at charlie b's backpackers. we spent the night looking for halal food n playing cards. the next day , me, jg n ati went to the city n we bought tix for the tram n punting. it was a superb experience, the tram n the punting. thres a band called sunshine, playing themusic n sing songs on the tram . we went to the canterbury museum, artgallery n botanical garden.n the punting . the punter name is philip n he is from us, hot, super hot infact, n with awesome sense of humour. i then being told dat my aunty, my maklong , passed away. al-fatihah to her. such a fine lady. it gave me a struck at first. shes damn nice . the sad thing is ,shes my dad's sis , n we cant get through my dad because hes at indonesia for sum work stuff.

the , we took bus to picton n we stopped for a while at kaikora. it was a 5 hours journey on the bus n it sucks. i dun like it. prefer flights or anything else , other than bus. i puke when i arrived at picton. we took a ferry from there. well, it is not like a ferry,a cruise mayeb because they have places to eat, cinema, games n other stuff in dat ship. i watched a horror movie on the journey n we arrived at wellington at nite.

we stayed at arifah's house. her house is on the hill. it is more like a chalet. because nice view of wellington from the backyad. i cooked most of the time there because she have this beautiful large kitchen which i adore very much. we cooked , nasi lemak, tomyam, ayam rempah, roti jala n cheesecake. n we n other ipba people hangout at ' cinta restaurant'. the food was ok. i met shirley,eva,nisrin,sharq,yusman,aiman n chouji there.after the dinner , we went to all the ipbarians house to say hi. we stayed there for two days, n we did went to the tepapa museum,an art gallery , train station n the city. it is a nice n lovely place but its very hilly.

our flight to auckland was on the 15th and we stayed at nisah n crew house. i stayed in dzeti's room. we spent most of our time cooking there n watched horror movies every night. n theres this one night , we watched the love guru. we ate outside food a lot too also. lotsa halal foods. we went to the museum, auckland domain n the ity. the city is just 5 mins walk from their place. hangout most of the time with the guls,dyau, hanif, faris n aiman. i met mira,akma con , ain, dzeti, hisyam n wira there. such a nice feeling to be there. wonderful people with wonderful place , with wonderful activities n wonderful food.

my flight back to brisbane was last sunday n i arrived clv at nite.

it was a wonderful winter break. looking forward to be back at malaysia. :)

unity.

ncg (national conference games) just finished here at australia with everyone gathered at queensland. im one of the committee as im one of the official photographers for the event. i enjoyed doing it since photography is one of my fav stuff to do here at overseas. taking sporting events is quite new to me but it was really worth it. such an experience. i worked really hard taking pictures with superb movement n capture it with my d60. for the first day , my 2gb memory card was full n it kinda shocked me because i cant remember when was the last time i did dat. 2gb full, n its not even a whole day event.

i met people from diff state in australia since the real objective of dis event is to unite malaysian students here. i met sze huey, my close-fren when i was in MGS. she represent act ( Canberra) for badminton. we hangout the 2nd day, n had lunch together. its very sweet because its been quite sum time we didnt get to talk like we did in school especially during primary school. i was a head prefect back then n shes my assistant , n we will talk on the phone after school for hours, talking about school, frens n life. the good old days.

one of the big issue that we touched that day is unity, how is it influence malaysian n stuff. we get into a conclusion where it is hard , especially now , to unite people , especially when those ppl came from diff races. the cultural diversity really influence our everyday lives , hence, our perception towards sumting. n thats when unity cme in. looking at malaysia now , i am afraid that what i have in mind is true and i hate to say that its the truth.

i still remember when i was in school or back in klang, i always thought that unity is there between the community. if not for every malaysian citizen , but at least in my community. when i was in school ,we were frens to each other. there is no such things as diff races as we saw ourselves as a malaysian. the only thing dat differ us is the religion and colour. we managed to become sisters and still are now.

but im here now , im 21, n i see the scope in a larger view. n the definition of the word unity and everything dat has sumting to do with it , changed. maybe its because , its the real world now or maybe it just because of those people that i knw now see dat thing differently. and i always ask my self, why cant we be like those days where unity is not a problem and we see ourselves as a family that live happily and peacefully on the same piece of land ? izit because those perception is never true because i was a child back then ? or izit because we are too selfish when we are in real world n wil do anything to get our ass on top of other people?

there was a fight during ncg between the delegates. obviously , the main objective failed. n its a shame thing to be remembered by all the malaysian students. furthermore, wat happen in malaysian politics now , gave us second thoughts about it.

i wish i was 10 years old now where everyone lives happily together without having to worry about unity.